empty, not even half full
So we are going not soo strong into the new year. Am currently at week three...well we all are so to speak...now if i were to base this upon my so called Jan 4th resolutions...i'd be good to go. First; of course I've had my beers and cheers, only on the wkd; which has brought me to a new conclusion regarding the beverage intake (I shall expand upon in a few) 2nd, I have been crazy up on the working out but I still have a rather lovely relationship with my food. 3rd dont worry I havent fallen in mad crazy love with a soul yet.
With my resolutions at the most to be considered in progress....I still am not me. I've lately been on the not so uppidty mood with my usualy big smiling self....my pearly whites have not gotten to see too much of the sun and the moon these days...poor teeth...and it would be more than ok with me if I could blame that shit on some PMS....but in all reality I cant blame it on that.....its lasted for sometime now...
I tend to go to bed angry, I wake up angry, how does one wake up angry. I mean usually one dreams something worth smiling about and me I keep my dreams in my morning thoughts for the most but havent been. I dont even know that its being lonely so much, because if I were, I doubt i would keep my cell on silent or simply let the ringer go to voicemail. I come home angry, ok its not an everyday event but it happens more often than not these past few weeks......
Anywho, with that upon my mind and soul these days...I haven't been up to much beyond, work, our crazy pipe bursting leaving our classroom completely empty, no tile, no carpet, our classroom materials dispersed randomly throughout the school.....I have been searching Craigslist for a part time job....but you need experience in everything...how the hell does one gain experience if no one will hire you to at least give it a shot.....
I could say or blame it on the area...me being a midwest gal lost amongst the east coast...but I ask myself these days wherever I move would i feel the same...an empty me........
With my resolutions at the most to be considered in progress....I still am not me. I've lately been on the not so uppidty mood with my usualy big smiling self....my pearly whites have not gotten to see too much of the sun and the moon these days...poor teeth...and it would be more than ok with me if I could blame that shit on some PMS....but in all reality I cant blame it on that.....its lasted for sometime now...
I tend to go to bed angry, I wake up angry, how does one wake up angry. I mean usually one dreams something worth smiling about and me I keep my dreams in my morning thoughts for the most but havent been. I dont even know that its being lonely so much, because if I were, I doubt i would keep my cell on silent or simply let the ringer go to voicemail. I come home angry, ok its not an everyday event but it happens more often than not these past few weeks......
Oh yea the drinking bit...I knew I forgot something....went out for drinks sunday night and realized that others have noticed my high tolerance to drink...when a friend of mine had about half of what I drank and was drunk, I mean drunk, she attempted to keep up. I woke up with no headache, no drunkn texts or calls had been made....If the only thing I have to show these days for my wkd adventures that include alcoholic intake....hmmm
Anywho, with that upon my mind and soul these days...I haven't been up to much beyond, work, our crazy pipe bursting leaving our classroom completely empty, no tile, no carpet, our classroom materials dispersed randomly throughout the school.....I have been searching Craigslist for a part time job....but you need experience in everything...how the hell does one gain experience if no one will hire you to at least give it a shot.....
I could say or blame it on the area...me being a midwest gal lost amongst the east coast...but I ask myself these days wherever I move would i feel the same...an empty me........
posted by Melissssss at 4:34 PM
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