3 to 1???
Ya ever sometimes feel very unlike you.....or what you thought defined you...hasn't for sometime...ok here I am questioning everything in a melissa fashion. It's been awhile...my bad for not blogging my lil heart out these days.
I seem to be only happy in one aspect of my current lifestyle out in NJ...ok maybe two, but some major ones are affecting me on a daily basis....work is sooooo blah for me, of course my heart is with the kids but many things within the work environment are leading me to quesiton my purpose at school, and really have I gotten my BA, and for the most my Masters in Early Childhood Education, Family and Child Studies to be an assistant who is bored most of the days. And damn why did I go into this low paying sometimes un-fascinating career.....My home, is not comforting, Im going to leave it at that but simply felt the need to ecpress it. I am still upset about losing my gramma Nancy....maybe more or less not being able to get home and I know I have missed a few funerals, but my gramma Nancy is my gramma nancy. Her quietness showed yet her smile Shined and just her simpleness of living awed me to realize one doesnt need much in life. She was a casino loving, buffet eating, pow wow going gramma. I could go on and on about how much I loved this woman and how much she meant to me, I just wished I would spent more time down in Tama with her!!!
Volleyball is gooood, can that really be the only thing that is keeping me here in NJ!
Other than that....I went into the city yesterday and had dinner with many drinks with my friend Patricia. She is soooo cute, and is just fun to be around with, I guess she can get a lil too drunk on occasion...my kind of friend....LOL!!! nah but I realize how much I value the diversity and culture of people around meeee...she is from France and is working at Columbia University, she knew little engligh 6 months and immersed herself with the English language and has done beautifully as backwards the English Language tends to be. I've realized how fast I tend to talk and slow down with her and use full explanations....It's soo easy for me to hop on a mini-bus 2 blocks from my house and be in Times Sq in 20-30 minutes for only $2! but damn if the damn places around times SQ are not EXPENSIVE!
I am trying to decide whether or not to give it another year here on the East Coast. I have never been one to quit or give up...maybe take a break but I am one to start and finish things...so I am at that point of thinking I am worried I will be mad at myself for going back to the midwest or worried others will look at me as giving up after a year of living on the EC! Although I do know, many people missssss meee! Who wouldn't! NAAAAAAAAAAAH JUS JOKING!
No pics, sorry, even though I do have my new camera!! I really want to get back into photography which has always been a passion of mine....I just need a nice, nice camera that right now is $800 without a 2nd lens! grrrr...this passion is currently on the backburner...
ok I hope you feel caught up on my random thoughts above! I am headed to SD for Easter...than yooooooou sister for buying me a tix to see my babies!!! Devin will be joining us, if anyone else is game for my sisters gooood eats, best couch in the world..HOLLLA!
I seem to be only happy in one aspect of my current lifestyle out in NJ...ok maybe two, but some major ones are affecting me on a daily basis....work is sooooo blah for me, of course my heart is with the kids but many things within the work environment are leading me to quesiton my purpose at school, and really have I gotten my BA, and for the most my Masters in Early Childhood Education, Family and Child Studies to be an assistant who is bored most of the days. And damn why did I go into this low paying sometimes un-fascinating career.....My home, is not comforting, Im going to leave it at that but simply felt the need to ecpress it. I am still upset about losing my gramma Nancy....maybe more or less not being able to get home and I know I have missed a few funerals, but my gramma Nancy is my gramma nancy. Her quietness showed yet her smile Shined and just her simpleness of living awed me to realize one doesnt need much in life. She was a casino loving, buffet eating, pow wow going gramma. I could go on and on about how much I loved this woman and how much she meant to me, I just wished I would spent more time down in Tama with her!!!
Volleyball is gooood, can that really be the only thing that is keeping me here in NJ!
Other than that....I went into the city yesterday and had dinner with many drinks with my friend Patricia. She is soooo cute, and is just fun to be around with, I guess she can get a lil too drunk on occasion...my kind of friend....LOL!!! nah but I realize how much I value the diversity and culture of people around meeee...she is from France and is working at Columbia University, she knew little engligh 6 months and immersed herself with the English language and has done beautifully as backwards the English Language tends to be. I've realized how fast I tend to talk and slow down with her and use full explanations....It's soo easy for me to hop on a mini-bus 2 blocks from my house and be in Times Sq in 20-30 minutes for only $2! but damn if the damn places around times SQ are not EXPENSIVE!
I am trying to decide whether or not to give it another year here on the East Coast. I have never been one to quit or give up...maybe take a break but I am one to start and finish things...so I am at that point of thinking I am worried I will be mad at myself for going back to the midwest or worried others will look at me as giving up after a year of living on the EC! Although I do know, many people missssss meee! Who wouldn't! NAAAAAAAAAAAH JUS JOKING!
No pics, sorry, even though I do have my new camera!! I really want to get back into photography which has always been a passion of mine....I just need a nice, nice camera that right now is $800 without a 2nd lens! grrrr...this passion is currently on the backburner...
ok I hope you feel caught up on my random thoughts above! I am headed to SD for Easter...than yooooooou sister for buying me a tix to see my babies!!! Devin will be joining us, if anyone else is game for my sisters gooood eats, best couch in the world..HOLLLA!
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