a simple hello

Sometimes you ever wonder how life can be soo good to you and your on this natural high because soo many things seem to be going your way! I had this high for about a good month, it felt awesome, i ran with joy and looked forward to running and how good it felt to be sweaty, i enjoyed my friends, I actually picked up the phone and reached out to people. I prayed and when I did pray whether it was before I fell asleep at night with my favorite pillow or if it was on my walk to work and did a quick lil prayer to god I was thankful, thankful for soo many things in my life. I repeatedly thank god for all the challenges he had for me, for all the things he has brought into my life! I enjoyed cooking more and more in my little apartment, I enjoyed the tofu nuggets and actually requested more of them from my roomy. I was HAPPY! HAPPPPPPY!

I am happy for the most, day in and day out and there are not too many things in life that get me down, but again I was sooo happy, overly happy and in one day, ok in a few days I felt like a little stone being kicked around on the ground and all I wanted to do was ball up and cry to my sister and my mom. I did, haha, ok to my sister. Day one felt like my expressions to others are not spoken enough and my words needs to be louder maybe, more apparent, part of me wanted to YELL WTF do you want me to say!?!? I didn't because again I struggle with my words....

Again bless my sister for her simple "hello" - a hello was all it took for the tears to come strolling down my eyes as I pushed my face into my pillow crying my lil heart out to my sister about life. I was trying to think of the last time I let myself cry like this, soo easily, almost too easily, as though these tears were waiting and we need to shed a tear every now and then..hmm..well t had been two days in a row of being kicked around, or at least that is how I felt. Day two is just something that life throws at you or at me and all I am going to do is roll with the punches and attempt to work it out day by day...

It's thursday I am feeling better, a lot better and know that things happen for a reason and I am still happy, I made myself go for a nice long run yesterday and I laid out on my roof and got some Sun, because the sun cant help but make one feel good! I have ignored my cell and my emails this week...but I thanks god for my sister and my mom and how much I still rely and need them daily, daily! My older sister is my mini mom, my mom is always going to be that mom who sometimes simply lets me cry and doesn't tell me how to fix things but again just listens to her daughter, to me....

I miss you blogspot

Ohhhhh man - its been soo long since i've written on here..geesh where has the time gone..lets see, I could do a nice quick update for all but that would leave me feeling like the past 11 months summed into one blog..hmm..I feel my sometimes crazy busy yet sometimes I feel like a waste of space life - would do me no justice..are you with me?

I must say that I feel like my life is or has stability all around. I am about to give another year at my current school.



I am a co-teacher in a beautiful school I feel, a school that has soft touches, simple colors, small chairs, a comfortable couch, rugs and books and other teachers I've truly come to enjoy working with. (most of them) There are 4 of us who started last Fall and are again back for one more with some interesting directors least to say...the 4 of us has a nice tight knit look out for each other bond.

My co-teacher Elly - bless her heart and her everyday compliments to me whether I am looking mad tired or am all dolled up to work with 3 years old. Her niceness sometimes makes me want to be mean because she is just soooo damn nice and I know I could never be that nice..lol...hey at least I can admit that ish!

Sandra, aka too short, my lil happy hour sidekick. Her straight forward keep it real self has become a close friend of mines. She listened to me through late ass brooklyn and damn Omar. Im glad I this lil' spit fire colombian from queens who helps me with spanish and is a true friend! I love my sandra. Saaandra, sannndra. *hehe*

The artist Maggie - so sweet, soo funny with her words and her constant love for Lucas. I am worried, what will she do when Fall is upon and Lucas attends a different school. We've shared stories about alcoholic parents, siblings and our love for our nieces and nephews.

As you see, work is a large part of my life - this summer showed me how good of friends I have as we maintained our sanity and love for each other when we were forced to stare at each other for almost 8 hours...

I also just committed another year at my apartment. I love my apt. My room is spacey enough..there is always some sort of good smell within the apt, whether michele or I are cooking, or Love Spell has just been sprayed onto my body or michele's endless sweet june product or slowly making their scent into the whole apartment..mmm...i love the smells here. I enjoy my roomy and our conversations...thats when we see each other..lol..her happiness is addicting and wanted!

Running and being healthy! A major part of my everyday life, i am sure we all have our days when we drift from healthy but I bounce back damn quick!

I think this is plenty for you to all take in right now..I am gonna write more in the upcoming days..right now its back to dinner with Reggie (^_^)

TOKSA kolas and my tiospaye!